What Really Goes On In Our Home
Do u ever find yourself comparing yourself to other mothers,especially other blogging moms.
I have been like this in the past and then realized I am different BUT guess what came back after I had our second(6 months now).Yep,the same feeling.That is why I took some time off from blogging.I always was comparing myself to other blogging mothers(some of you that read this~for real).I have to admit that JEALOUSY kicks in when I read about moms that have 3 or more kids and they home school and have dinner ready when there husband gets home from an hard day at work.Oh and there homes are nice and tidy with no laundry piling up and the dishes are all put away.The kids all have there school work done without any issues.The baby is breast fed and wearing cloth diapers.
I have to say this is NOT how our household works especially when u have an 6 month old teething.That means clingy.....clingier than normal.I get up and he is stuck onto my hip for the remaining of the day.HE is holding his arms out for me and if I hand him over to my husband when he gets home it usually isn't for long.Yesterday I had enough time to jump into the shower and that was it.On an normal day Here is what our day looks like.............
4 am Toby wakes and has bottle usually wont go back to sleep til 6 ,sometimes he will fall back to sleep.My day tends to start with checking emails and face book and I pin if time allows.
Zachary is awake by 7 am and then he has TV time and then when daylight shines through he heads out to care for 4 dogs and all of the chickens.
During Math I will do dishes and sweep and try to get laundry started.Throughout the day if I get an chance to do something I will grab it.I use to workout for 60 minutes a day BUT not anymore I try to get 20 in every great chance.I have to dry my hair with the baby in his highchair watching me.
I am trying HARDER than ever to forget about the dishes and laundry and TRY to grab those mommy moments.If something doesn't get done we will all work as a family in the evening to get it done together.Zachary has been helping with laundry,bless his heart.I also need to work on my short fuse that tends to get the best of me.I forgot how fast my boys are growing up.I don't want them to remember me as the one who was never there for them.
I am going to give up this make believe life that I am trying to make for us and get to it,This is our life and its as real as it gets,Nothing candy coated.God made me who I am for an reason and he has blessed me with an awesome husband and two beautiful healthy boys.
Every one of us is different and we shouldn't be compared to.I need to STOP this and I will try as hard as I can.So what if we don't get through our lessons in one day,isn't that the beauty of homeschooling another day another time another season.